lalala

2005-11-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

i guess tis will be the lastt p0st abt eu n t0 eu..

we habb agreed t0 walk seperate ways n n0t b0ther n n0t c0ntact eachh 0ther. t0 miee, i dun want things t0 turn 0ut tis way bc0z tis isnt the ending i want. i want us t0 c0ntinue being friends.but eu dun want. but wateva it ishh.. i still treat eu as a friend n0 matter wat. l0tsa things habb been running in my mind. im still w0ndering whys cant we still be friends. haishh. well.. thanks fer th0se mem0ries. times n times we quarrelled,enj0yed many happy m0ments t0gether,chatting 0n the ph0ne til late nite n the list c0ntinues.. everything sums up n became beautiful mem0ries fer us t0 rmbb. 2 n a half yrs 0f mem0ries.. eu taught miee t0 be str0ng.. eu were there wiff miee at times when im feeling dwn.. the 0ne wh0 lectured miee when i did the wr0ng things. the 0ne wh0m to0k great care 0f miee.. lo0king backk at all th0se mem0ries..perhaps im really wr0nged abt eu but well.. since things turned 0ut tis way, i tink i shld let it g0 n let tis be justt mem0ries n a great less0n t0 learn. i bet eu to0 learnt s0mething frm tis. the lastt pr0mise will neber be br0ken..neber eva will it be br0ken. eu to0 mustt kip datt pr0mise, alright? wateva happened, life still habb t0 g0 on. h0pe eu will really find ur real happiness n cherishh her.. neber let any 0f th0se hist0ries t0 be repeated. well.. n0w we lead 0ur own lifes. take care, alright? n0e wat's right n wat's wr0ng in life. dun d0 anything which will cause any regrets. may it be s0mething eu regret d0ing it,learn frm ur mistakes. hMmm. i will always rmbb tis beautiful st0ry! neber will i 4get any part 0f tis st0ry.. will eu? hMm. always kip datt smiLe 0n ur face.. hees. :)

2005-11-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

sians. its 1.54am n0w n i cant slp. haishh. im sh0 tired but i justt cant slp. dunn0 whys osh0. haishh. w0ke up quite early 2dae. it's c0nsidered early fer miee bc0z i slept at 3 plus recently. hahaas. met up my friends at ecp fer blading. they taught miee h0w 2 blade. hees. finally i n0e h0w 2 blade lia0s. wheEe~. but still n0t stable. hMmm. practice makes perfect. hees. then went t0 bbq at pasir ris. hMm. 0verall quite fun la. hees. haishh. when learning h0w 2 blade, i fell many times n i injured myself to0. haishh. but it's justt min0r injuries. hees. but FUN~~. hahaas. reachh h0me at abt 11 then actually ard 12 plus wanna slp already but when i lie 0n my bed, i justt cant slp. haishh.. im tired.. im sleepy but i justt cant slp. 0Hhh.. s0meone cure miee?? hahaas.

2005-11-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

crushh 0n y0u.

2005-11-16T13:51:00.000+08:00

i wishh up0n a star
wanna be right where eu r
eu set my w0rld 0n fire
babe i g0t a crushh 0n y0u
i wishh up0n a star
cant eu c h0w right we r
we shld be t0gether
babe i g0t a crushh 0n y0u

i used t0 turn ard n walk away
neber st0pped t0 plae
c0z there's n0 attracti0n

but in my hrt, eu start t0 gr0w 0n miee
kind 0f suddenly
sh0 n0w, i've changed directi0n

kn0wing it might seems strange
lurbbe came 0ver miee
feeling the luck has changed
d0 eu want miee, like i want eu?

in tis c0ld w0rld, where dreams r few
baby, i want eu
isit t00 muchh t0 askk fer?

i'll take eu t0 places where eu neber been
if eu justt gibb in
sh0 babe, it's n0w 0r neber

kn0wing it might seems strange
lurbbe came 0ver miee
feeling the luck has changed
d0 eu want miee, like i want eu?

miee n eu. eu n miee. living in a life 0f harm0ny
it's magic. babe i g0t a crushh in eu

sh0 if eu feel the way i d0
w0uld eu fancy t0
take a ride beside miee?

it's n0 crushh. i lurbbe eu.~
haishh. an0ther 23 daes n im leaving sg fer taiwan. w0uld things still remain the same when i return? haishh.

2005-11-13T13:19:00.000+08:00

hmMm. justt w0ke up.im sh0 tired yesterdae. went 0ut fer 13 hrs n i miss my bed. hahaas. went t0 y0uth party. y0uth party was alright l0rs. hahaas. we played games, ate, fell0wship wiff 0ne an0ther. but the place was really far at CLEMENTI. then we had t0 walked in. g0shh~ the weather ishh sh0 HOT!!. eu can feel like ur hair's burning and eu're getting heat str0ke anytime. LOL~ then we went t0 the functi0n rm where we held 0ur party. felt kinda weird la. bc0z g0t l0tsa unfamiliar ppl. hahaas. then there was tis game which suprise miee l0ads. whichh ishh planned datt th0se bdae gers/b0ys were blind f0lded. but we dun even n0e abt it. hahaas. i can tell eu it isnt gd t0 be blind f0lded. eu can 0nly hear v0ices. c0mplicated v0ices!!. eu dun even n0e wat they r talking n eu r feared t0 walk ard bc0z eu dunn0 wat's ard ur surr0undings. FEAR ishh all eu can sense at datt peri0d 0f time. then when we sitted at 0ur "destinati0n". then we saw a swensens icecream cake in fr0nt 0f us n every0ne sung HAPPY BDAE s0ng. hahaas. i was sh0 sh0cked n suprise. hahaas. then aft datt we ate n clear the stuffs. then to0k shutter bus t0 clementi mrt n to0k a mrt t0 church. then went t0 cafe t0 chatt. it was kinda b0ring la. then went t0 line up fer svs. then aft svs saw derrick n ivan. but i dun tink they saw miee. hahaas. g0shh. half way during the dae, my ph0ne's batt went dead. haishh. then aft svs, s0me 0f us went t0 simpang bed0k n eat prata. hahaas. then unf0rtunately, i suddenly had gastric pain. g0shh~ but it's alright la. g0t used t0 it already. hees. then shared cab wiff hui ying n j0seph. lalala~ then tried t0 slp wiff the pain. it's terrible~~. haishh. but the pain ishh g0ne already. hees.

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sh0 b0red. haishh. n0t g0ing anywhere 2dae. g0nna stay at h0me the wh0le dae. haishh.

2005-11-11T17:25:00.000+08:00

hey. hey. can i kn0ck s0me sense int0 ur heaD? whys r eu hurting b0th girls? treating em sh0 gd the 1st min n threw em aside the next min? girls aint t0ys fer eu guys t0 t0y wiff, ok! girls aint t0ys, guys aint the player.we r justt players 0f tis game called "lurbbe". can eu justt lurbbe 0ne? 0ne ishh en0ugh. eu dun nid hundreds,milli0ns 0f girls t0 lurbbe,care and pamper eu, ok! all eu nid ishh t0 lurbbe datt special s0m0ne n n0t flirt ard. cherishh her!. ishh being faithful sh0 difficult? it isnt, riyes? when can eu eva n0t run away frm reality? when can the 3 0f em step 0ut 0f tis triangle lurbbe? all these lies within eu n0t the girls, ok! eu're simply t0ying wiff their feelings, ok!. hurting em sh0 deeply. aint eu a human? spare a th0ught fer urself n em, can? agRh.. n can eu st0p lying t0 em? st0p all ur swt talks la. WHO EU LURBBE? tink abt it la. st0p hurting em.if eu habb decided, res0lve ur pr0blems wiff em. st0p running away frm reality.

2005-11-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

im fragile; dun hurt miee.
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hees. yesterdae was my bdae. thanks fer all the bdae wishes. :) yesterdae went t0 mit him then spent alm0st half 0f the dae wiff him. hahaas. tis ishh the 1st time he ishh celebrating my bdae wiff miee. hahaas. dun 4get 0ur pr0mise w0rs. hahaas. i knew eu w0uld be reading tis. LOL. thanks~
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haishh. sh0 sians. didnt g0 fer w0rk 2dae. i was sh0 tired. i tink im quitting the j0b already. it's sh0 tedi0us. nebermind. anyways, i had f0und an0ther j0b but haven went fer the interview. but was suppose t0 g0 fer interview 2dae at 11.30 but i cant wake up early in the m0rning sh0 i s0rta DUA datt pers0n. hahaas. okok. i n0e im bad but cann0t blame miee bc0z im damn tired. hmMm. tinking abt l0tsa stuffs. h0ping it w0nt be empty pr0mises again. h0ping fer a miracle.
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i dun wishh t0 be kept in the dark. haishh. can eu all let miee settle my 0wn pr0blems myself? th0ugh eu all claim datt its 0ut 0f c0ncern but i really wishh t0 settle it my 0wn. haishh. if eu all were c0ncern abt miee, habb eu all eva spared a th0ught fer miee? eu all w0uld habb discussed it wiff miee rather than kipping it frm miee. haishh. i hate t0 be kept in the dark.

2005-11-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

hees. im 15~ lol. HAPPY BIRTHDAE T0 MIEE. hahaas.wahh. 2dae went t0 eat swensens wiff stella they all. great sisters. hees. had a suprise there. dunn0 when n h0w they 0rder tis bdae icecream fer miee. its like sh0 sudden bc0z they neber leave their seat n we neber 0rder datt icecream then suddenly aft 0ur meal, tis icecream came n datt waitress said happy bdae t0 miee. lol. im sh0 sh0cked,can? hahaas.then went t0 tm t0 catch a m0vie. TOM YUM GOONG. my 1st nc-16 m0vie. lol. im underage. hahaas. quite nice but quite b0ring osh0 bc0z i dun really like tis kinda fighting sh0ws. hahaas. but 0verall its still 0k. :) then the sh0w fin at ard 11.15 then headed straight h0me wiff kellen.0n the bus, s0me 0f my friends smsed miee happy bdae. thanks, friends. hees. eu guys will neber be 4g0tten. hahaas. then he called miee at 1203 n i th0ught he w0nt call miee bc0z he ishh habbing his O tml.hahaas. thanks~! special thanks t0 j0alin,j0y n br0 ken. hees. eu guys really made miee to0 sh0cked t0 react. at 1st i th0ught j0y had s0mething t0 tell miee 0ver the msn dat's whys she smsed miee. lol. when i reach h0me, i saw j0alin n br0 ken 0utside my hse waiting wiff a ch0c0late cake. hahaas. its like midnite n they r 0utside waiting fer miee t0 celebrate my bdae. hees. im sh0 t0uched* hahaas. thanks. :) j0shh ishh sh0 cute. bc0z he was supp0se t0 sms miee at 12 as "pr0mise". LOL. tis ishh a "pr0mise" made in the afterno0n. hahaas. i'll rmbb ur bdae osh0. hahaas. then he fell aslp then ard 1230, he msn miee saying "happy belated bdae n s0rrie bc0z he fell aslp" lol. ishh n0t belated, my friend. hahaas. thanks~~. THANKS. hahas. great dae. h0ping fer m0re suprises. hahaas. im sh0 greedy. okok. i'll c0ntr0l myself. hahaas. a happy dae indeed. hees. h0ping t0 be in tis kinda m00d every single dae. lol~~

2005-11-04T02:24:00.000+08:00

haishh. its 2.24am n0w n i still cant slp. haishh. recently dunn0 whys i cant slp until 4 plus 5. currently listening t0 a s0ng by ah du entitled 爱字这么写. there ishh tis phrase in the s0ng which applies t0 miee. " 不要跟我说话。不要问我爱字这么写。我猜世界上没有人能了解。" i truely felt tis way recently. well. well. let's n0t rake up the past. :) we mustt lo0k f0rward n n0t be sh0rtsighted. everything's g0nna be fine n everything's g0nna c0me t0 an end real so0n. tis messy life 0f mine will so0n c0me t0 an end. i dun wishh t0 lead tis kinda life anym0re. its sh0 miserable. eu imagine everydae eu cant slp til late nite. ur mind ishh w0rking every min, every sec wiff th0se past. i n0e datt mem0ries cant be erase until eu g0t a l0st 0f mem0ry. s0metimes i wishh i habb l0st my mem0ry sh0 life w0nt be sh0 miserable fer miee. but i guess i habb get used t0 tis kinda life ler. hahaas. a simple life wiff a wide smile ishh all i asked fer n0w.hees. its hard but i'll try. if eu kip 0n tinking datt eu cant find a ray 0f light in tis dark alley then eu will neber find a way 0ut. i always believe datt if there ishh will, there's a way. but u mustt be str0ng, eu cant be easily influence by 0thers. :) eu shld n0e wat's right n wr0ng fer ur life.

2005-11-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

hmm. tml getting backk my result silp. haishh. i had d0ne badly but at the least i am pr0m0ted t0 sec4. hees. h0pe datt nth changes. im sh0 afraid datt my result datt teacher t0ld miee b4 schh ends n the result im taking tml w0uld be different. wat if i retain instead 0f pr0m0te? haishh. end 0f the w0rld fer miee, can? haishh. but i guess tis will neber happen. hahaas. whEee~ tml habbing training fer my w0rk n i guess i can start w0rk next wk. hahaas. its time t0 kip myself busy during tis h0lidae n 4get th0se hurtful mem0ries. n 0f c0z t0 kill time. hahaas.

m i really happy? 0r justt a fake smile 0n my face? i dun even n0e myself well. but wateva it ishh, a smile hides all s0rr0ws. :)

2005-11-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

sh0 b0red. slept at 4 yesterdae n w0ke up at 10. haishh. i wishh i c0uld slp m0re. hmm. mitting sufen few hrs later. hees. l0ng time neber g0 out wiff her ler. 2dae we mustt really catch up wiff each 0ther's life. hees. g0ing t0wn later 0n. im justt p0sting craps.
HAPPY BIRTHDAE, j0alin! :)
my bdae ishh c0ming to0. w0ndering will it be a sad bdae. haishh.
lurbbe ishh justt a pr0mise t0 get hurt.

2005-10-31T20:07:00.000+08:00

life's inc0mplete.

everything seems sh0 dead.

it seems like n0 one's ard miee helping miee.

hit by depressi0n?

i justt wishh s0meone cared fer miee.

i justt wishh s0meone's there fer miee when im feeling dwn.

wishh datt s0meone could bring miee happiness.

rather than tears and sadness.

haishh.

im sick n tired 0f tis life.

it seems like im sad everydae.

1 min 0f happiness isnt en0ugh.

24 hrs 0f happinesS? wiff n0 w0rries?

dat w0uld neber happen.

im b0rned t0 suffer.

im b0rned wiff a miserable life.

fate ishh fo0ling miee.

s0ft hearted? naive? n0 l0nger.

s0metimes i shld be hard hearted n n0t be fickle-minded.

wat the hell has happen t0 my life? whys ishh fate fo0ling ard in my life?

haishh. i simply dun understand.

can s0meone tell miee the ans???

i guess n0 one c0uld eva tell miee the ans.

2005-10-22T19:50:00.000+08:00

G0NE. UNTIL THE DAE IM 0UT 0F TIS MESS.

2005-10-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

ishh sm0king bad fer health? ishh drinking bad fer health? wh0 on earth can tell miee the w0rst c0nsequences can happpen aft getting drunk 0r a lung canceR? isnt dying better than suffering in a w0rld 0f misery? wh0 can be by my side when im dwn? wh0 can share my s0rr0ws n burdens wiff miee? n0 0ne. ! wh0 can make miee happy? wh0 can bring miee happiness? n0 0ne ! wh0 can st0p th0se tears frm running dwn my cheeks? st0p th0se terrible nightmare? st0p tis hell n mess im in?? n0 0ne can help miee. there's simply n0 one wh0 can help miee. ishh only myself wh0 can pull myself up frm tis great fall. whys ishh every0ne feeling sh0 depress recently? wat 0n earth habb happen? haishh. im simply l0st. lastt time when i was wiff God, things werent lidat. life wasnt sh0 messy. life wasnt sh0 empty. haishh. i dunn0 wat had happen t0 miee. i simply felt sh0 muchh like a burden t0 the w0rld. felt like ending my life. wat's wr0ng wiff tis? i dun c anything wr0ng. i justt dun feel like suffering anym0re in tis w0rld. life shldnt be tis way. it shld be full 0f c0l0urs n smiles. n0t like my life; sh0 dull yet full 0f s0rr0ws. feel like slping til the end 0f time. neber waking up t0 face the mess in my life. i dun habb the c0urage t0 face wat's c0ming up. i only wanna be happy wiff eu. but. haishh. im bringing eu pain. i felt sh0 muchh like a pest in ur presence. i dun want eu t0 hate miee. but s0metimes i tink the things i habb did, eu really hated miee.

2005-10-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

haishh. 2nd p0st fer the dae. im still feeling miserable. i cant fully c0ncentrate 0n my studies. exam's tml. ss n chi p1. although there r many things 0n my mind, i w0nt neglect my studies. i will pr0ve t0 eu datt i wanna study. but will eu c the eff0rt dat i'hv made? haishh. i felt like a knife piercing thru my hrt. its bleeding pr0fusely, b0y. whys did i always n0t cherish eu when eu're ard? whys did i always regret when i did s0mething wr0ng? whys ishh life t0rturing miee? i had been t0rtured enough. im tired. when can i eva c things m0ve 0n smoothly?? everything's 0n my mind. my mind cant st0p w0rking a sec bc0z it will draw backk mem0ries. b0y, i really cant live with0ut eu. i nid eu backk in my life, baby. praying hard datt eu will calm dwn and talk t0 miee. i neber had tis kinda feeling b4. unspeakable s0rr0ws. w0rds cant describle h0w i truely feel. w0rds can only describle half 0f wat im feeling deep inside 0f miee. i can only feel better aft saying 0ut h0w i felt inside. i can hardly c0ncentrate 0n 0ther things. pls f0rgiv miee, will eu? many times i had pr0mise datt i w0nt make eu angry but s0meh0w i justt made eu angry 0ver n 0ver again. haishh. it wasnt ur fault if eu cant f0rgive miee fer wat i had d0ne. i habb t0 pay a price fer my acti0ns. i t0tally regretted wat i had did. its all my fault. i shldnt habb said th0se w0rds t0 eu. haishh. w0ndering r eu tinking 0f miee? 0r still b0iling wiff anger against miee. haishh. i can d0 nth but sit n wait fer the dae t0 c0me. datt ishh eu will calm dwn n gibb miee 0ne m0re chance.

2005-10-09T09:16:00.000+08:00

th0se s0ngs reminded miee 0f the past. thick n thin we had went thru as a status 0f stead t0 hi-bye friend. hi-bye friend t0 cl0se friend. cl0se friend t0 abt t0 patch. frm abt t0 patch, i habb made the wr0ng path. i had walk a path datt leads t0 regrets n a dead path way. nth i d0 can eva salvage tis relati0nship we habb. i habb made eu angry again n again. hurt eu far to0 muchh 0f times. causing eu t0 feel depress n stress. didnt i feel the same to0? eu habb br0ken my hrt again n again. making th0se empty pr0mises. times i feel like giving up but eu made miee realise h0w important eu r t0 miee. the 0ne i lurbbe the m0st. the 0ne i cant live with0ut daily. the 0ne wh0 chatted on the ph0ne wiff miee til late nite. the 0ne wh0 revise my w0rk n taught miee my w0rk. the 0ne being wiff miee whenever im dwn. the list g0es 0n n on. i 0nce thought eu truely lurbbe her. we were caught in a triangle lurbbe. causing many buckets 0f tears, c0nflicts n quarrels. i thought i was the 0ne wh0 causes all tis. bc0z all tis while eu b0th had been quarrelling bc0z 0f miee. i felt sh0 helpless. i dun want t0 be a third party. n0 one says i am but i tinks i am. many said eu still lurbbe miee. im aware 0f the fact. we didnt avoid eachh 0ther. yet i thought we habb a chance t0 patch backk. i really lurbbe eu to0 muchh datt i cant gibb up 0n eu. the th0ught 0f eu justt w0nt be erased. at times we had c0nflicts, i cant slp until late nite. life with0ut eu ishh meaningless. i really nid eu in my life. i n0e i can neber live with0ut eu. im justt acting a str0ng fr0nt in fr0nt 0f eu. im n0t datt str0ng. isit bc0z 0f anger datt eu said im justt acting wei da?? haishh. im n0t. im truely n0t. i justt dun wanna eu b0th t0 quarrel bc0z 0f miee. fer wks, i had been making eu angry. perhaps eu had l0ng given up 0n tis relati0nship. perhaps ur lurbbe fer miee had became harted datt eu said eu dun wanna c miee anym0re. haishh. im like caught in the middle. lurbbe eu yet afraid 0f many things. afraid datt she might be hurt if we g0t t0gether again.afraid t0 hurt her fragile hrt. m i really thinking to0 muchh? haishh. i dunn0. i dun even n0e a single thing. all i n0e ishh it had causes miee nightmare n slpless nites. s0rrie isnt the w0rd eu wanna hear anym0re. bc0z t0 eu i dun mean it. but i really mean it. i wasnt 0n purp0se t0 make eu angry. can eu understand h0w i feel? justt a little bit? haishh. i n0e eu w0nt eva c tis bl0g. bc0z eu neber n0e i had a bl0g. i really lurbbe eu my darling. tell miee eu truely lurbbe miee. haishh. if eu truely lurbbe miee, eu will call miee again when eu habb calm dwn. dun hide anything frm miee, pls. i'll cherish every single thing if eu gibb miee the chance again. but i n0e its impossible. haishh. whys did everything turn 0ut lidat? the way i dun want things t0 be. c0me backk t0 miee, baby. i lurbbe eu. will be waiting fer eu til eu talk t0 miee. haishh. but i dunn0 will eu eva calm dwn. any0ne tell miee the ans?? i wanna n0e if eu still lurbbe miee.

2005-10-08T10:10:00.000+08:00

im abt t0 l0se c0ntr0l

i, i dunn0 whys

whys eu nid s0me reas0n t0 feel l0st inside

eu, eu n0e datt im alright

eu n0e datt im justt the kinda ger datt

feels sh0 hurt n smiles'

i dun use excuses

dun askk whys

its justt a breakdwn

it happens all the time

sh0 get out 0f my face

dun even try

eu wanna help miee, justt let miee cry

yeah, i lurbbe eu all my life

eu dun even n0e a thing i feel inside

n0, by a lo0k in ur eye

dat im justt fine, but i nid eu t0

h0ld miee tight

i dun use excuses

dun ask whys

its justt a breakdwn

it happens all the time

sh0 get 0ut 0f my face

dun even try

if eu wanna help miee, justt let miee cry

i had a bad dae, i'll cry if i want t0, cry if i want t0,cry

i had a bad dae, i'll cry if i want t0, cry if i want t0, cry

justt let miee cry

justt let miee cry, im crying, i breaking dwn.......

im breaking dwn, justt let miee cry

tis s0ng reflects 0n h0w i feel n0w. haishh. haishh.

2005-10-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

h0w cruel ishh tis w0rld?? 0nce being c0ndemn means being c0ndemn 4eva? a le0pard will neber change its sp0ts? yeps. indeed a le0pard can neber change its sp0ts but we as human shldnt we ought t0 habb chances t0 turn 0ver a new leaf? haishh. wat in tis w0rld d0es ppl expect frm 0thers? they wanna 0thers t0 change fer the better yet they dun even gibb us a chance t0 change. wat in the w0rld ishh tis? haishh. even if 0ne changes fer the better, n0 one will eva c the change they had made. they 0nly regc0nise the ugly n negative side 0f em. dat's human nature. haishh. sh0 wat's the pt 0f changing fer the better? 0thers will still c0ndemn eu like they c0ndemn eu in the past. esp tis fucking schh im in. they pratices c0ndemnati0n. 0nce being is0lated n c0ndemn, there ishh n0 way 0r opp0rtunity t0 turn 0ver a new leaf. 0nce eu habb a black mark, it will ruin ur life. n0 one will eva gibb eu datt chance t0 change. even its a slightest chance. they will neber. haishh. perhaps dat's human nature. but i truely believe 0ne can change fer the better n0 matter h0w many mistakes they had made. justt gibb em 0ne 0pp0rtunity t0 change, eu can c the difference in em. n0 matter h0w many wr0ng paths eu habb to0k, dun c0ndemn urself. justt walk backk t0 the right track. even if n0 one gibb eu the chance t0 change, pr0ve fer urself t0 c. hMmm. vent my anger n frustrati0n already. hahaas.

2005-10-02T12:25:00.000+08:00

l0ng time neber bl0g ler. im to0 lazy t0 bl0g. hahaas. time flies. justt a blink, tis yr ishh c0ming t0 an end. final yr exam's next wk. mustt study doubly hard. yes. n im studying n0w. hahaas. sh0 many things had happen during tis yr. all th0se c0nflicts wiff my friends, th0se swt n bitter mem0ries, thick n thin we all had went thru. all these builds up my friendship n sisterho0d wiff my friends n sisters. lurbbe eu guys* muaCks. my lurbbe fer eu had neber change. the 0nly thing datt had changed ishh the situati0n n0w. n0 d0ubts. but let us c0ncentrate m0re 0n our studies 1st as we r habbing our maj0r exam n0w. dun let tis thing affect us. :) pls trust miee!. i n0e i had d0ne far to0 muchh things t0 make eu angry. but trust miee. i will change my attitude n neither will i lie t0 eu again. but pls. dun lie t0 miee n hide anything frm miee again. i will always be there fer eu when eu nid miee. i wanna be the ger wh0m eu share all ur burdens t0. the special 0ne t0 eu. let us g0 backk t0 the past n create a new hist0ry. i lurbbe eu always. n always waiting fer eu t0 return t0 miee. muaCks. i dun care h0w muchh will it c0z miee t0 change but i will. eu to0 mustt n0t break ur pr0mise. :) l0sing a friend may bring tears but l0sing s0meone special ishh hrt breaking. neither d0 i wanna l0se my friends n0r my special s0meone. dun d0ubt my lurbbe fer eu. :)

2005-09-23T18:55:00.000+08:00

sh0 tired. justt came backk frm pp. went t0 pp wiff meng yi aft schh. hehees. l0ng time neber g0 out wiff her liaoos. eunice was supposed t0 go wiff us der but burden she g0t tuition. but nebermind. next time then we all g0 out t0gether. hahaas. then at pp saw quite a l0t of ppl. firstly saw alan n his stead at mini to0ns then aft datt saw s0me sec4 ppl. then lastly saw yimin n clarence they all. hahaas. went t0 eat wiff meng yi at the market. hahas. we had dim sum. wahh. it's sh0 nice. hahas. dunn0 ishh i hungry or the fo0d ishh really nice. LOL. then went shopping at pp. had l0tsa fun. :)

2005-09-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

hmMm. edited my profile fer tis bl0g. shld habb 0ther pics but s0meh0w it cant scroll. its ok. i'll edit it again when im free. g0shh. time files. exam's ishh ard the c0rner. i mustt start studying fer it ler. haishh. im sh0 afraid datt i might retain. kip praying fer mie. :) n i will osh0 d0 my part t0 study doubly hard. hehees. tml we r filming again in schh. we g0t l0tsa things t0 complete if n0t it will clash wiff our exams. bc0z the deadline ishh n0v. my g0sh. i'll be busy fer these few wks. but its ok bc0z we habb 2 mths of h0lidaes which means 2 mths of playing like crazy. hahaas. but cant plae to0 muchh bc0z still nid t0 prepare fer next yr's N. these few yrs r crucial fer miee. haishh. 0n fri, i went svs al0ne. was supposed t0 g0 wiff j0alin but she overslept. svs was great. saw many healing testimony. we r truely serving a living God. :) God ishh gd all the time.

2005-09-10T15:12:00.000+08:00

dint bl0g fer quite s0me time ler bc0z had been busy wiff my stuffs. hmMm.on thur,i went t0 bishan junction 8 to watch 0ne m0re chance wiff my sisters. hahaas. tis sh0w ishh sh0 nice man!. its sh0 touching n funny. hahaas. local movies r always lidat. LOL. i wanna watch RED EYE!. it seems like a nice sh0w. :) then aft datt went to 53 to find s0k f0ng they all bc0z it was jac's bdae. n i went there to celebrate her bdae wiff her. HAPPY BDAE , JAC! :) then slack at there until late nite. i reach h0me alm0st midnite. n i nid t0 wake up at 9 on the f0ll0wing dae which was yesterdae!. yesterdae was a tiring dae fer miee man. w0ke up at 9.30 bc0z meeting s0me of my classmates fer the filming. we r suppose to mit 10 at my hse d0wnstairs but the gers including miee was late sh0 the guys went t0 a coffeesh0p nearby my hse t0 habb breakfast. then kaihui n miee joined em but we didnt eat bc0z we aint hungry. hahaas. then s0mething frightening yet funny thing happen. hahaas. bc0z i used my hp t0 call meiyee to wake up bc0z she was still slping then i left my ph0ne on the table then we left the coffeesh0p. thank God datt the guys saw my ph0ne n they took my ph0ne. but i dint n0e my ph0ne was missing until i reachh h0me. bc0z my friend called my hse n asked miee whys my ph0ne was switch off then i was sh0 panic.then i search my bag fer my ph0ne but i cant find it sh0 i left my hse n intended to run to the coffeesh0p to find my ph0ne. then alvin chase miee. i didnt care but aft a while i stopped bc0z i thought if i really left my ph0ne at the coffeeshop, confirm by the time i reachh there, ppl already would habb taken my ph0ne. then alvin told miee datt they to0k my ph0ne. i didnt believe at 1st then he used his ph0ne to call my ph0ne n they ans the call. wow.. i was sh0 scared datt my ph0ne was lost bc0z life's without ph0ne sux. hahaas. then they played comp at my hse fer a while then we g0 mit meiyee n start our filming. hahaas. it was tiring yet fun. we fin filming until ard 8 then we went to habb our dinner then s0me of em went t0 j0sh's hse t0 ton while i g0 h0me n bathe then i g0 out to mit my friend. then ard 3 plus alfred they all called miee askking where m i n if i could help em to keep a bike bc0z they bought extra bike out. i didnt help em bc0z my friends n i wasnt staying ard the area. sh0. ya. s0rrie ar. :) then i came h0me tis m0rning n slept til ard afterno0n. n im still tired n0w. but i justt cant slp. haishh. s0me thoughts keep flashing on my mind. im still sh0 confused. thinking of solutions t0 s0lve my pr0blems.

2005-09-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

haishh. wat had happened on o7o9o3? it had been 2 yrs. all datt precious memories eu had given miee. all th0se lies eu had told miee. im asking myself shld i trust eu 0nce again? do i still lurbbe eu? eu told miee datt eu still lurbbe miee. all tis while eu had been telling miee tis but wat happened in the end? eu still g0t backk wiff her. i asked eu whys then eu said eu r afraid datt tis might affect her studies as tis yr she ishh habbing her N. im sh0 confused. r eu making empty pr0mises to miee again? r eu lying to miee again? wat shld i d0? haishh. im sh0 l0st. if eu still lurbbe miee, can eu pr0ve t0 miee? acti0ns speaks l0uder than w0rds. r eu willing t0 change? pr0ve to miee datt i can trust eu again . i dun nid swt talks, i dun nid any explainations. if eu cant pr0ve to miee, im s0rrie. bc0z i dun wishh t0 be hurt by eu 0nce again.

2005-09-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

im sh0 hungry! i didnt really eat 2dae. only ate dinner. hmMm. 2dae i w0ke up quite early bc0z meeting my friend's fer discussion abt the act. but end up everyone was late bc0z its to0 early. hahaas. then went to ch0on hee's hse while waiting fer meiyee. then s0me of us played PS while the rest justt watch at em plae. hahaas. eterna the pr0 taught kaihui h0w 2 plae the game. LOL =P then aft datt they came to my hse n rehease 0ne scene. man. its sh0 tiring. 0ne scene ishh abt an hr plus plus. i w0nder h0w l0ng will it take fer us to film the wh0le sh0w which c0nsist abt 5 scenes? if im n0t wr0ng. lalala~ perhaps it'll take us 0ne wh0le dae or mayb m0re than a dae. nebermind. its w0rth. although its tiring, we had fun n m0st importantly every0ne enj0yed it. hahaas. hmMm. im l0oking 4ward to fri. hahaas. im sh0 excited.
the creW:
j0sh. alvin. alfred. meiyee. kai hui. eunice. dewayne. kenny. h0ck ann. eterna. cho0n hee n miee.
... they came my hse n br0ke my lamp. i was sh0 sh0cked. totally spechless fer datt m0ment bc0z i dint expect tis to happen. i thought my mummy will get damn mad abt tis but guess wat? she dint. she said
nebermind. hahas. thank God fer dat. :)
wahh. tis ishh a l0ng post. whee!

2005-09-05T22:03:00.000+08:00

didnt did muchh 2dae. stayed at h0me fer the wh0le dae. was habbing a headache n s0re eye. man. i getting sh0 weak. haishh. but i to0k a step 0f faith to pray fer healing. n guess wat? praise God datt the pain due to my headache was n0t killing miee anym0re. hehees. =P hmMm. spend my afterno0n on the msn wiff joy. LOL. 3Bs. j0y's my beauti while marilynn's my bunny n im j0y's b0n b0n. LOL =P kinda lame but fun. wHahaa. g0sh. i haven start on my holidae h0mework. haishh. but im justt to0 lazy to complete em but i mustt bc0z tis maths assignment ishh counted int0 ca2. talking abt exams. i bet i'll fail every single sub except fer eng. i mustt study doubly hard fer my finals which ishh a mth dwn the r0ad.:) i believe i can d0 it. :) w0ndering h0w m i g0nna spend tis 1 wk holiday. shld i study? shld i plae? shld i stay at h0me n slack? lalala~ let nature take its courses. hahaas.i g0nna wake up early tml bc0z meeting my friends to discuss abt the act. hmMm. im sh0 excited but i cant contact kai hui!. God, help miee. i g0nna contact her but her ph0ne ishh always engaged. haishh.

2005-09-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

hmMm. went fer church svs 2dae. felt sh0 dry spiritually but well it takes time and faith. n m0st importantly prayers!.
life ishh full of obstacles BUT wif God all tHings r possible. :)
aft svs, went to eat at bugis wif the mem. then t0 tm wiff j0y n marilynn bc0z marilynn buying present fer her friend. hahaas.
oh my. my eye ishh swollen again. haishh. im weak. habbing a swollen eye aft a terrible headache. but it seems m0re to an ulcer on my eye. if it w0rsens, im g0ing to c the d0c. better be safe than s0rrie. hahaas.
lalala~ im lazy to bl0g l0ng post. =P

2005-09-03T10:25:00.000+08:00

LAMEness ishh cause by b0red0m.
im sh0 b0red. its sat m0rning, aint i suppose to be slping in tis co0l weather?
but i justt can slp n0 m0re. im sh0 awake.
lalalala~. im posting craps. LOL=P
im justt plain b0red. every0ne's slping.
no no!.
except fer marilynn. LOL
i bet she cant stand my LAMEness anym0re. hahaas.

2005-09-02T20:21:00.000+08:00

im fed-up.
im sad.
im felt sh0 unworthy fer her.
dun wishh to c her f0llowing my fo0tsteps.
but its too late.
she had fallen fer him too deeply. simply too deeply already.
haishh.
she w0nt listen to us. she w0nt heed our advices.
but i really wishh to tell her :
he ishh unworthy of her lurbbe. he ishh justt using her bc0z he ishh a farking flirter. always toying wiff ppl's feelings. oh g0sh!. hate him hate him hate him to the max.
i justt h0pe datt she w0nt get hurt too deeply.
haishh. but wat can we d0? nth but justt sit aside praying fer a miracle to happen. a miracle to change every single situaton!.
sisters r there fer eu when eu needed us. although we had many misunderstanding, i will osh0 be there fer eu. :)

2005-09-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

my bl0g's alive 0nce again. =P a new begining of miee. starting everything afresh. let byg0ne be byg0nes. i can neber change hist0ry but i can create history. im sure datt i needed Him in my life. my life ishh in a total mess n i felt sh0 empty without Him. i g0nna continue my walk wif Him. :) a special thanks to th0se wh0 neber gave up on miee. lurbbe eu guys* :) my results dr0p tremendously. haishh. g0nna study hard fer my finals ler. cann0t slack sh0 muchh ler.